What to do? What to do?

So yesterday we drove a hour and a half to Dubbo (Our closest "city"...) to get a dating scan on our baby. Sadly and it was fricking sad as sad can be there was just the little sac measuring 14.1mm but nothing there. The technician was lovely, she kept making me pee and come back and she kept trying but the reality of it is there's a lovely little home in my tummy but nobody is home.

Now we just have a waiting game, saw 2 GPs at the practice where I go they ordered another HCG level blood test to see if my levels are going down. In a sick, sad way I kind of hope they are going down then I will just know. I have in my head that what if they went up from last night but are still going down, I'll have hope and as much as hope can be a beautiful thing is can be a pain too.

What to do? What to do?

Take my mind off today but building chicken houses with my gorgeous man then go on heifer calving duty again with him later this afternoon.